Saturday, May 3, 2014
Important Detail
I am watching an arrested woman. I found out Ellen saying that keeping thoughts in your head is better than letting it out in some physical way (and using more force not being weird.) Ellen does stuff if you get bad words in your head. That's annoying, I didn't think myself Nell ["was a nigger,"] they gave me signals to do it I thought in order to make the word seem friendly, like oh that's all, we won't have you grow up and be told that financially. It annoys me when she latches onto sluggishness of Tim Burton's bad side, sorry to try to say, etc., Johnny Depp. No offense. It's just a correction. We need to figure it out. Will it make me arrested more later? This is weird!
Debate
I'm not good enough to be Autistic, even if my speech is considered situated like building blocks.
Also, a lady today, said "kill it," while I texted a hate message, and I was upset and shuffled, then stomped my bare feet. She musta gone crazy, I got mad when people were making noise around me for like 15 minutes. I just let myself think bad. It was mostly about someone else, unfortunately-they acted like that person told them to do it. I think that makes them feel good.
Anyway, it doesn't seem as safe in the world, but she was the 1 who started flirting with me like I was just a nigger, tossing aside manners, like I need it like a shot for diabetes or another illness.
I forgot to mention it made me mad and I didn't wanna get arrested so got it out without making a mark in the world.
Also, a lady today, said "kill it," while I texted a hate message, and I was upset and shuffled, then stomped my bare feet. She musta gone crazy, I got mad when people were making noise around me for like 15 minutes. I just let myself think bad. It was mostly about someone else, unfortunately-they acted like that person told them to do it. I think that makes them feel good.
Anyway, it doesn't seem as safe in the world, but she was the 1 who started flirting with me like I was just a nigger, tossing aside manners, like I need it like a shot for diabetes or another illness.
I forgot to mention it made me mad and I didn't wanna get arrested so got it out without making a mark in the world.
Upset
I don't agree with Ellen condoning people for 1 accident. I think she's casting my mom. What do you think? Nothing else, just that? I think it's sad, cuz my mom's always been on everyone's good side. I can only blame my dad for putting her in the position. We live together. I can even catch her slip in thinking it's cuza me cuz it wasn't, though I do forget why. See, now you want me to talk about something of this nature more.. when you have nothing to say but that when that shouldn't be. Can't you see the ways she's kidding? If not, then I don't know. I know she easily pops. That's sad. Ellen is not perfect, why doesn't she get in trouble? She says she is never in trouble, but I think this is racist. I can't imagine something like this happening to someone else. We don't live in castes, like in Louisiana. I know it doesn't really touch you, neither, at 1st, and then you change in some things like that, at least. No hard feelings. Like Ellen making ends meet, my options also meet. That, or it's important.
Not Okay
Ellen can't tackily group together people from Pennsylvania with me. I'm more from New Orleans than her. That puts her in Pittsburgh with the other kiddos.
Solve your problems the right way.
If you don't want a minor job, figure do you wanna be famous and if not rich? Maybe, consider Business Administration as a college major, but keep trying to be famous.
"Interesting"
I didn't know she was black. She is just uncomfortable, and it's easy to press a button.
Adding up Like 1 2 3
Ellen may not care, I dunno if she has that secret, but things from others seem to add up like 1 2 3 and it will affect like my dad. The mood won't be right, things won't be happy.
I think Ellen feels bad but not anything to do with me, interested in others. She has acted interested, and I believe she did something nice.
I think Ellen feels bad but not anything to do with me, interested in others. She has acted interested, and I believe she did something nice.
No Test Anymore
I don't know that what I said was nasty, but I wasn't accepting and was upset of being told what to think in a wrong way. Ellen must be racist. People pretend that's an insult, but they are racist all the time and proud of it. Why should I beat myself? I don't believe in making things worse by pining over what was. You're supposed to do what teachers say to their students, not to worry about mistakes and to move on. Am I missing something here? What about me? You want me to be a self-hater? How easily can you type, "You're a self-hater," yet not even really mean it?! I mean when talking about race. People don't want to be caste into lower races.
By the way, what was the big deal about me saying someone out there is a meanie? I was upset, too, at my parents bothering me! I wasn't just making up stuff.
By the way, what was the big deal about me saying someone out there is a meanie? I was upset, too, at my parents bothering me! I wasn't just making up stuff.
War Material
As long as other white people find me inferior do I find them war opponent material so I can be on top.
Monologue for Audition
Raoul Duke from Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas:
What was I doing here? What was the meaning of this trip?
Was I just roaming around in a drug frenzy of some kind?
Or had I really come out here to Las Vegas to work on a story?
Who are these people, these faces? Where do they come from? They look like caricatures of used car dealers
from Dallas, and sweet Jesus, there were a hell of a lot of them at 4:30 on a Sunday morning, still humping the American dream,
that vision of the big winner somehow emerging from the last minute pre-dawn chaos of a stale Vegas casino.
What was I doing here? What was the meaning of this trip?
Was I just roaming around in a drug frenzy of some kind?
Or had I really come out here to Las Vegas to work on a story?
Who are these people, these faces? Where do they come from? They look like caricatures of used car dealers
from Dallas, and sweet Jesus, there were a hell of a lot of them at 4:30 on a Sunday morning, still humping the American dream,
that vision of the big winner somehow emerging from the last minute pre-dawn chaos of a stale Vegas casino.
Impetus
What a self-centered post! BLEH~ Nah, it's just some info. Tha's wut ah sed. (That's what I said.)
#Blended everywhere i go🎥🎶 #May23 pic.twitter.com/ZilCMhTfNB
— bella thorne (@bellathorne) May 3, 2014
Posts
Nothing is in order.
I thought it was.
Ellen -has- to have attention is how she "goes." She "feels" her way out. No pun intended. No offense.
Anyway, she acted like I was to be dumped, and I could have not had to do this. She is so annoying and picky. Worse, she stayed in my face and was like .. I still have you .. I need someone and not you .. "it's IT for me" like in a low grumbly voice for replacing me and like never speaking to me like the schedule wouldn't work out. How tacky, annoying, and "sin"ful is that?
Race
I feel Chinese are mistreated by Jews if they're mixed. No long looking at us like we owe you the Holocaust. Most Eurasians have just as much Jew as you.
Bad Thing
I was upset and this guy kept vacuuming to affect my private and acted like Ellen told him to do it. I ended up this time thinking bad thoughts to myself rather than potentially being arrested and stomping or hitting.
Still Didn't Do Anything
to Ellen. I just said what she did and how I felt about things in general maybe at least. No one likes what she did and how she did it. I said fine in the end but know it's from cursing me with my cursing which was only for entertainment.
And so..
..will and would there be anything to accompany Ellen's sad departure from this life? Like, a retirement, a divorce?
Explanations|Disclaimer:
I didn't mean anything bad.
I thought it was.
Ellen -has- to have attention is how she "goes." She "feels" her way out. No pun intended. No offense.
Anyway, she acted like I was to be dumped, and I could have not had to do this. She is so annoying and picky. Worse, she stayed in my face and was like .. I still have you .. I need someone and not you .. "it's IT for me" like in a low grumbly voice for replacing me and like never speaking to me like the schedule wouldn't work out. How tacky, annoying, and "sin"ful is that?
Race
I feel Chinese are mistreated by Jews if they're mixed. No long looking at us like we owe you the Holocaust. Most Eurasians have just as much Jew as you.
Bad Thing
I was upset and this guy kept vacuuming to affect my private and acted like Ellen told him to do it. I ended up this time thinking bad thoughts to myself rather than potentially being arrested and stomping or hitting.
Still Didn't Do Anything
to Ellen. I just said what she did and how I felt about things in general maybe at least. No one likes what she did and how she did it. I said fine in the end but know it's from cursing me with my cursing which was only for entertainment.
And so..
..will and would there be anything to accompany Ellen's sad departure from this life? Like, a retirement, a divorce?
Explanations|Disclaimer:
I didn't mean anything bad.
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